Unheard but Real

My journey has been a relentless battle against depression, anxiety disorder, and social anxiety. There were days when hopelessness engulfed me, and I felt like I was drowning in a sea of despair. Grief seemed to lurk around every corner, and I often felt left out, isolated, and afraid most of the time. Throughout my school years, anxiety attacks and panic attacks became all too familiar. They would strike unexpectedly, leaving me gasping for breath, my heart pounding with f

I never got much of love or support as a kid and was always on my own since childhood. All I wanted in life was love, care, and peace. Materialistic things were never on my list but I didn't get what bare minimum I wanted like ever. Then I got married and things were a bit okay. A few months ago we all got terribly sick and it changed all equations of my life. My husband's nature turned to extreme and he's a different person altogether. He said terrible things he shouldn't a

Lately, I have been getting this feeling that no one understands me or what I am going through. I try to make efforts to comfort everyone around me but no one does that for me. No one sees the efforts I make even if I do that right in front of them. No matter what I still get blamed for everything in the end. There is a friend with whom I have been living, she always says things about me in front of a group that I don't find amusing. Later she says that she was kidding when

Sometimes I feel like I was I was born with some kind of sadness mixed with my blood, but with a spirit that refuses to accept defeat. I was the funny friend of my friends group. You know the one that gives you advises and listens your problems. I was the joker of my childhood friends group. I was always carefree and friendly. I still remember one of my friend saying, “Noor ko to kabhi kisi chiz ki tension hi nahi rehti hai” (Noor is never worried about anything), but I still